summer plans? even i don't know...

Two weeks before I'm officially finished (with classes, with finals, with spring quarter, with my second year... OMG I'VE FINISHING MY SECOND YEAR) and I still don't know my summer plans. A few days ago, I was sure of myself: I was going to embark on a journey this summer to find myself and reconnect. Sometimes people get so caught up with working and achieving goals, that they forget themselves and their quality of life suffers. I think I'm still pretty young, but I know how to be a workaholic, and I'm already feeling the consequences from doing so. So this summer, I wanted to leave behind that old part of me--the part that hated going home (or even refusing to acknowledge it as home) and glorified everything associated with Davis and my newfound [seemingly] independence. I wanted to stop running away from everything that's doesn't go right, and have the courage to at least face it. The conditions to achieve that goal were perfect: I would go back home and not work, but focus on school and on strengthening my relationships with family and friends. I was so set on it...

But the possibility of an important internship has come afloat once again. Hmm. To be continued...


ps--I'm so proud of my best friend.

Thoughts about anything BUT my TXC paper...

Vielleicht sollte ich nach Milpitas diese Wochenende gingen haben. Natuerlich habe ich mehr Freizeit hier fuer meine Papier, aber habe ich meine Freunde da drueben. Aber, ich denke, dass ich Freunde habe... (Ich bin nicht eine gute Freundin)

Heute ist sech Monaten seit sagtest du, "Wir sollen erst Freunde sein." Warum fand ich niemand
haben? Ich fand dich nach sechs Monaten nach meinem exFreund. Wo ist meiner neuer Mann?

Ich wunsche, dass ich ein neulich Bild des meines Lebens hatte, aber ich habe kein. Schade...

ich weiss, sie wissen, aber weisst du? ich weiss nicht.