i feel like im fighting for a lost cause.

Then why try anyway, right?

So conflicted. This is supposed to be my best year, my senior year. And then I got all sappy & shit that it was my last year. I didn't think things could get any worse, but... what's that saying? The straw that broke the camel's back? Yeah, something like that. I feel like that's just happened.

Before junior year ended, I was introduced to the beginning effects of the budget cuts. I was saddened to hear that the services we were offering at the ICC were being cut. On a more personal level, hearing that course alternatives that I wanted to take were being cut (due to budget cuts of course) sucked even more.

I was pretty excited to come back to my on-campus job, but I was informed mid-August that I was let go. Why? Because of budget cuts? Ooh, aren't you a smart cookie ;)

And it was officially released Monday (you can access it here) that the Textiles & Clothing department will be closing (I'm a TXC major, if you didn't already know). I've come to love that major, and the whole department has worked hard to create a well-rounded and interesting program that can apply to [mostly] any post-graduate field of choice.
(You know what's ironic? Earlier that day, a few TXC majors and I were part of a career panel explaining to freshmen why we love our major and how wonderful it is i.e. personal attention, well-rounded program, interesting subjects, etc only to find this out?! WTF)

I'll be spending my senior year fighting a seemingly impossible battle. Call me young, optimistic & stupid, but tell me, whats the harm in trying? And frankly, the more you tell me "no," the more you motivate me to prove you wrong.

Here's to hoping that we prove them wrong, ladies <3

110 memories... & Little Prague

Not gonna lie, but ever since I've gotten back to Davis, I've hit the bars just about every week haha. Ohhh the 21 life <3 and my liver. lol

I went out last night with the roomie & a former suitemate, and dude, it just felt like old times. We were reminiscing about schtuff that happened from Freshmen year, and then we realized we were seniors. Ohhh man. haha
[For the record, we are the remaining ladies of suite 110 <3]

We were catching up and learning about the "Downtown Davis" scene. It was pretty interesting... It's nice to wander around tipsy/buzzed/drunk when youre finally LEGALLY 21.

mmm Little Prague is our/my new favorite bar. Such a hidden gem. Kudos to the nice lady bartender :)

Being there, catching up, and talking about future plans just got me thinking about something else: studying abroad

I'm hoping to defer graduation so I can study abroad (something that "should be done before you graduate college), and im pretty excited. However, I'm weighing a practical decision (going to the UK to pursue a design course) and a kinda whimsical one (going Germany).

Aaand right now, I really really want to go to Germany. Maybe if I sleep on it, the desire will go away? Hah, doubt it.

Why Germany and not the UK? I took German for all four years in high school, and after taking the placement test here in Davis, I placed into intermediate German and took GER21 (as a Freshmen, mind you). Actually, when I came to Davis, it was because I wanted to pursue a major in German. It's funny how things change... But regardless, I miss the language. I miss speaking it and learning about the culture. Hmm...

Ich hoffe, dass mein Vater verstehen werde.