On the verge of breakdown #5

I could exaggerate and say that this is breakdown #1878934, but I'll keep it simple and honest by saying number five. How do I know that this is my fifth breakdown? Because I have one every quarter ever since I entered this institution called "college." There are ups and downs to everything, and the "ups" to college are numerous , but the "downs" are severe.

I can feel it, I'm on the verge of breakdown for this quarter. Fuck school. Yeah, just like Dane Cook says "Fuck shoes!", I say "fuck school!" (On a side note--I should stop swearing so much. Apologies to the Hawaii Club and my roommate). I'm feeling burnt out, and I still have three weeks left (I'm a broken record saying that, but it's true)!

I wish I could go home for the weekend, but doing so would just amplify the situation, for the worse. I would lose time on traveling (even if it is just for two hours) AND all the shizz I need to do for HC and classes!! AHH just thinking about that stresses me out.

The most frustrating thing about every quarter is that I [feel I or try to] do so much but it never is enough!! If I'm not worrying about one thing, I'm worrying about another. As of right now, I know in which direction I want my college career to veer toward. Also, I know what I need to do in order to get there, but the problem is i'm not doing it. I'm hustling, and trying to organize, and focus, and study but it's just not ENOUGH! Focusing is the hardest thing ever... :\ I love being a student, and I love learning, but honestly, I think everyone has a bit of ADD in them after being in school for over 16 years...

Sure, I could cut extracurricular activities out, but I think its those events that keep me SANE. You can't expect me to just stay in my room all day and study. Who the fuck does that?! Not me! (I'm sorry if that statements offends people who do that... I bet your grades are much, MUCH better than mine.)

Poo on you school.

[Side note--I find it funny that, as I type this in King Lounge as I obviously procrastinate on homework, people are attempting to study and falling asleep all around me haha]