LAWLS to my title :D
Fall Quarter has turned out so different from what I thought it would be. That's not necessarily a bad thing, but it's just... unexpected.
Approximately four weeks left in the quarter, and there's so much I want to do. And school is the least of my worries :\
This time last year, I totes thought I would be applying for a full-time job. Of the many things I've learned at the ICC, I noticed that companies start hiring for full-time positions as early as fall quarter (eek!). Some of my incredibly down-to-earth and ambitious friends, they started job-hunting as early as Fall 2008 and still were struggling to find jobs once graduation came (alas, they were victims/class of 2009 haha).
And what have I realized? That I still don't know what to do with my life. I'm constantly debating with myself and adding but ruling out options... A few weeks ago, I had a quarterlife crisis and realized I should've been a design major (::gasp:: yeah, i said it). Or at least, I should've double majored (too bad there is no minor, here at davis).
Iunno, I kinda thought this year would be such a "breeze," but I realize that there's an inverse relationship between time and pressure which begets my anxiey (as time decreases, the pressure to quote-on-quote figure out my life increases which equals z0mg anxiety).
My poor sister... she has to deal with my late-night panicky phone calls about the future. Thanks Ate, I love you.
ps - to those of you who actually read this, i'm sorry these are so depressing (to say the least). my job allows me to express my thoughts and creativity through artwork and social mediums, but this blog (other than facebook) is the one place where i can be honest, and that itself is cathartic.
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