ive spent the past two weeks on a mini-vacation back at home home and now i'm about onto the next step of my life-after-college phase: im going back to my beloved college town, my part-time internship/work dealio, and looking for a real job and hoping to move in the next 6 months or less.
but what about before then - what about now? for the first time ever, i'm not too excited for where i'm going. it's not that both situations are worse but which one is truly better? live at home, rent free, expenses minimized, save moolah, look for a job and perhaps go lonely/crazy from lack of interaction or desperation OR go back to a college town where i don't belong/feel too old for/need to get the eff out and struggle with rent and other bills to pay and work a job that barely pays + no benefits. the first sounds much smarter, but as always, perhaps in true me-fashion, i'll go for the more difficult choice.
what these past two weeks have showed me is that if anything, i just want my life back. im craving to go back to where i have to learn the hard way that this is wrong (or perhaps right, but i'm pretty sure it's a wrong step lol).
just like when i got out of my comfort zone and moved to davis four years ago, i think i'm ready to do that kind of change again - move with something familiar but go into a whole new territory and feel it out for myself. yes. lol
this is the boring that i needed to motivate me to want something else out of life :)
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