2010, you've been [pretty] good to me...

It's funny how a year ago, I was so gung-ho on 2009 ending (which even a San Jose lifestyle newspaper/mag declared as the WORST YEAR EVER haha) and 2010 beginning. I quote:

2010 is my year, beezies!
good people in my life, amazing opportunities, and new beginnings... as this phase of my life ends, another one begins ♥

(wow, do I get brownie points for keeping that up for one whole year? haha)

Eh, to be honest, it was more exciting in the first half, and then it kinda just went down in the latter half haha. (Mostly because I had a different idea of how my "glamorous twenties" were going to turn out...)

And another note? It's weird to finally see myself starting over in January. If I had a FY, I would be going from September to August lol but now that I'm not in school anymore, I'm gonna say it's January - December.

So, here are my resolutions for next year:

- Pay off 1/4 of my credit card (hey, I'm going for realistic ones here okay lol)
- Up the quality of boys that I find (this one person tweeted: Ladies, stop complaining about the quality of boys you been meeting, cuz you're the one picking them! haha or something like that)
- Cook more (yay thank you sister for the cookbook!)
- Find a new job

To be continued...

sometimes i wish...

Oh noes, is this the point of your life where you start regretting things?

I honestly believe that "everything happens for a reason" and that's usually what I tell myself when I start regretting things, but lately I've been feeling more... guilty? for things I haven't done and it makes me wonder how things would've turned out..,

I lived it up as muuuuch as I could when I was in college, and I did as much as I could in order to be successful (or where I am now) but sometimes I wonder how things would've turned out if I didn't do so much. I'm not necessarily saying "stopping to smell the roses" but just done more fun shit instead of working myself all the time. Like hanging out with people more. Or chilling with friends more (I swear, they're different in my head lol). Or going abroad...

Eh, that's a trade-off for all that. The opportunity cost -- (hahaha YESSS ECONOMICS! i find it amusing when i can sneak in bits of economics into rando life topics) -- for all that fun was the experience and moolah I was gaining. Hrmm.

[and I think one of the most frustrating things right now is my social life. Not only is it weird being in a college town still when you're not a fucking student, but all your friends gone for the most part. And those who you do hang out with... well those people will be gone soon too. And I may have the time to hit the bars more and hang out with friends and go out and shit but damn well don't have the moolah. I have to be responsible and pay my rent. And where are all the guys huh... Always bitching that I don't have time for them, well here I am and with time on my hands...]

Maybe I just don't know how to reach out to people...

Grey's - "You Don't Get To Call Me A Whore"

Sunday mornings are meant for postsecret time (if you've never checked out PostSecret, do it now!) and this one response to a postcard cited the "You Don't Get To Call Me A Whore" speech. I've never heard of it, so I googled and found out it was from Grey's Anatomy. For all those of you who are curious too:

You don't get to call me a whore. When I met you, I thought I had found the person that I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I was done. So all the boys, and all the bars, and all the obvious daddy issues, who cared? Because I was done. You left me. You chose Addison. I'm all glued back together now. I make no apologies for how I chose to repair what you broke. You don't get to call me a whore.

It's short, powerful and poignant. (You can view it here too). Good for whenever I may need it for a later situation. lol

Livin' high off my glory days.

Oh no. I've become what I swore I'd never become.

You know when you were a student, and you'd meet people who were older than you, way older than you, most likely alum or college drop outs, and you were wondering why the fuck they were still in this college town?

Yeah, that's kinda me. Siiiigh.

I mean, wait. Hold up. I'm not thaaat old, yet. And this is just temporary.

And even though I try not to participate in things that are typically characteristic of a college student, I can't help but live in the moment of my Glory Days.

Hawai'i Club practices, songs & dances. Textie classes, projects, photoshoots, & blogs. Trying to fit in a social life while being busy, busy, busy. Ahh, I miss it. But I just gotta remember that that was one of many good things in my life; gotta keep hustling for something better so I can live in that moment too :)

My response to the NY Times

Maybe you've seen the article on "What Is It About 20-Somethings?"

And here is my respons-err, Alexandra Robbin's response.

From her Foreword in the book It's A Wonderful Lie: 26 Truths About Life in Your Twenties.

"...the reality of life in your twenties is much more complex. Yes, you're free to move about the cabin as you wish, but what about that job satisfaction? What about that post-college relationship that falls flat once put to the test of the real world? What about feeling lonely?" (Franklin xvii).


"In recent years, a new wave of classifications have been thrust upon those of us who happen to fall between the ages of eighteen and twenty-nine: We are, apparently, twisters, permanent adolescents, boomerangers, kidults, thresholders, and slackers, living in a 'Peter Pan syndrome.'

Peter Pan syndrome is so named because many researchers and reporters assume that twentysomethings 'refuse to grow up." Similarly, the terms 'twixters' and 'thresholders' are based on the notion that the post-pubescent purgatory we occupy is one of our choosing. Sociologist Terri Apter insisted recently, 'They're on the threshold, the doorway to adulthood, and they're not going through it.' It's as if, after sixteen or more years in a sheltered school setting, we pull over out graduation tassels and suddenly are expected to become equipped emotionally, pragmatically, and financially to make the major decisions associated with going through that door. But that's not the way it works.

The labels 'permanent adolescents' and 'boomerangers' - as in we listlessly boomeran back into our parents' homes - imply that, out of laziness, we would much prefer to waste our lives loafing while watching afternoon television and munching Fritos on our parents' couch. CNN has specifically accused twentysomethings of wanting to merely 'lay around.'

We don't languish in our state of limbo, however, as much as we battle it. Simply put, it is more difficult to be a twentysomething now than it was forty years ago. We face the most competitive hiring pool in history, with increasing numbers of college graduates. Furthermore, the age at which older generations expect us to succeed is rapidly plummeting; no longer is a thirty-year-old CEO deemed a whiz kid. With professional athletes drafted out of high school and A-list singer-actors in their teens, we're made to feel that if we haven't achieved something monumental by age twenty-five, then we're already over the hill. Regarding marriage, we are heavily influenced by that legendary 50 percent divorce rate. We do not want to make our parents' mistakes.

The truth is, we're not averse to growing up; we simply want to grow up responsibly.

If 'growing up' means attaining typically adult accoutrements, then it's not a question of won't, but can't. Generations before us could afford to support a marriage, house, and family in their early twenties because entry-level incomes could fund them. Today we wait until at least our late twenties, with good reason. We are the first generation in American history that won't do better financially than our parents. Add to that set-back the crushing costs of student loans and lower incomes than previous twentysomethings had, and it's clear why taking our time is not just a preference but a necessity. Arguably, it is more adult of us to delay traditionally adult responsibilities until we financially and emotionally are able to support ourselves, let alone others.

When I first began using the phrase 'Quarterlife Crisis' to describe a common experience occurring between the late teens and late thirties, it provoked derision from older adults. Contrary to a belief popular among older people, the Quarterlife Crisis is not the idle whining of a coddled, presumptuous post-adolescent. It is the response to reaching the turning point between young adulthood and adulthood; it is the amalgamation of doubt, confusion, issues and societal expectations at once. The Quaterlife Crisis can spark a variety of reactions ranging from subtle self-doubt to issues as serious as clinical depression.

The biggest difference between my label and the condescending new catchphrases is that I identified an experience, not a generation. The term 'Quarterlife Crisis' offers a category for those who wish to be reassured that their doubts are normal. Yong adults can choose whether or not to associate with it

...Some adults - usually those in a midlife crisis - roll their eyes when they hear 'Quarterlife Crisis.' 'Twentysomethings can't be in a crisis!' they say. 'When you have your youth and freedom, you have nothing to complain about.'

I try turnin the tables. 'If that's your reason for dismissing a Quarterlife Crisis,' I reply, 'then how can you complain about a midlife crisis when you have a spouse, a car, a savings account, and a backyard with a pool?' They are not amused. The generation gap grows fierce.

Gail, like many women in their thirties, is happy now and more at peace with herself. Over the years, she has taught herself strategies and coping mechanisms to help her figure out who she is and who she wants to be. I believe her success in conquering these issues means that for her, middle age will be a breeze. Because we in Gail's generation are confronting our identity demons in our twenties rather than waitin until our forties or fifties, I don't think we're going to have a midlife crisis. And then older doctors who dismissed our doubts will see who has the last laugh."

- Alexandra Robbins (xiii - xvi)

By the way, I highly suggest reading the book. I'm starting to like it, and it's making me feel less anxious about this thing called "my twenties" :)

[so this is what peace feels like]

or at least the beginning stages.

Does time really heal all? At first you don't believe it, but as time goes on (in days, weeks, months, and maybe even years...), it does. And it's just funny. Because many many many months later, I don't know what we ever had or what I ever saw in you. All I remember is my feelings were deep and I was so hurt beyond belief :\ so let me know, time, when this wound will heal, but until then, I'm still reeling from glimpses of pain. they're reminders of what was and what will hopefully never be again.

Hmm... [song of the moment]
"For Good" from Wicked


update/rando epiphany: looking back, i should've taken it as a sign that you somehow set off my carbon monoxide alarm after you left my apartment. lol

excited for...nowhere? lol

ive spent the past two weeks on a mini-vacation back at home home and now i'm about onto the next step of my life-after-college phase: im going back to my beloved college town, my part-time internship/work dealio, and looking for a real job and hoping to move in the next 6 months or less.

but what about before then - what about now? for the first time ever, i'm not too excited for where i'm going. it's not that both situations are worse but which one is truly better? live at home, rent free, expenses minimized, save moolah, look for a job and perhaps go lonely/crazy from lack of interaction or desperation OR go back to a college town where i don't belong/feel too old for/need to get the eff out and struggle with rent and other bills to pay and work a job that barely pays + no benefits. the first sounds much smarter, but as always, perhaps in true me-fashion, i'll go for the more difficult choice.

what these past two weeks have showed me is that if anything, i just want my life back. im craving to go back to where i have to learn the hard way that this is wrong (or perhaps right, but i'm pretty sure it's a wrong step lol).

just like when i got out of my comfort zone and moved to davis four years ago, i think i'm ready to do that kind of change again - move with something familiar but go into a whole new territory and feel it out for myself. yes. lol

this is the boring that i needed to motivate me to want something else out of life :)

i need some new hurr

It's that time again...

Don't get me wrong,
I love long hair,
I love my long hair,
I love the way it looks on me lol
But it's definitely time to let go.

(in more than one way I guess...)

it's interesting how things turn out

i have a few weeks before i have to move out, before my chapter at this complex ends, and i think i have it all figured out. well, i think i have the next 4-6 months of my life planned out, which is way better than where i was at a few weeks ago.

who would've thought that school was the easiest thing, and that things just get harder yet more interesting from this point on?

and although i only have the next few months of my life planned out, I think it's better to have that type of stability and struggle, then be somewhere where i am completely unhappy and start over from there.

i just have to keep believing that i'm on to bigger & better things :)

Dear you

Dear Sam Lim,

You'll never see this, nor will you ever know who I am (and I hope you don't know how and/or why you should know me), but I'm really sorry. I'm sorry.


- kris iringan

Sorry Tumblr

Wordpress pWns you. Then does blogspot. What, what blogspot!?

random writings on binder paper.

it's interesting what you find when you're cleaning...

what i wrote down on some binder paper around september 2009:

ive been busting my ass for the past 4 years. academically, emotionally, physically, financially (kinda)... no one's going to take this day away from me"

i'd like to be a professor one day. i'd like to give back to the community, influence, and inspire those to pursue higher education

i've worked hard. i've busted my ass for the past four years, and although it doesn't seem like it, please trust me, i've worked to push my limits and challenge myself

i work hard only because there are others who work so much harder. i have been extremely lucky, and id like to thank my parents for all their hard work and financial support, for giving me the freedom and taking away the financial stress that most students bear, in order to focus on school, but most importantly, to discover myself

for 11 years, i went through the private school system. i decided to go to uc davis. why? beause i wanted to get away. i could've gone to santa clara but i forfeited that privilegel. and i wouldn't have it any other way.

i have the utmost respect for students who put themselves through school, who made the conscious decision to forfeit the instant gratification of just a paycheck to pursue higher education and ultimately, hopefully, a bigger paycheck much later; who have beat all odds, taken themselves out of their comfort zones or their predetermined roles to change their future (= my rooms. love you rooms!)

some people don't college. bill gates, elizabeth holmes, my lola ode. they're just brilliant, but for the rest of us? let's stay in school




hahaha wow.

when college is over, i can say i lived it up :D

oh shit son, June is almost here!

Well, the title of this post is pretty self-explanatory lol. in two weeks, i'm officially graduating from college! It's so cliche, but so true: my, how time flies. this is my attempt to recap the past four years:

- I rushed for a cultural sorority and didn't get the bid. I rushed and pledged for a business fraternity and realized it wasn't for me. That's okay! Letters would be cool, but I'm pretty sure Na Keiki 'O Hawai'i is my ohana <3 (don't worry you TXCers, you come second lol)

- what won't kill you, makes you stronger, and it's certain obstacles that have definitely been the catalyst to better things in my life. EFF YOU CA&ES DEAN FOR PHASING OUT TXC, but I love how all of us got so close in attempting to fight for something we believe in <3 my TXC girls are the best!

- so i did really, really shitty in this one class. and i shouldn't have passed. and I prolly should've been placed on something other than "good academic standing" lol but thank you to Professor Monticha Sompolvorachai (dude, you CAN NOT forget a name like that lol) who gave me a second chance and let me study for my whole spring break and let me re-take the final so I could pass. I am FOREVER grateful.

- or there was this one time i stayed up and did a paper and only got two hours of sleep, and i was sooo proud of myself for not only turning in the paper but making it to both of my classes! but i fell asleep in the 2nd one and my teacher called me out in front of the entire class... BEEZY. yeah, i showed her by answering all of her freakin questions cuz the whole class is too freakin lazy to answer! that's what you get for picking out the girl who fell asleep!

- i think it was freshmen year that I did my best, academically. then it was just downhill from there lol but! there were moments during my junior and senior year that i tried really hard; there's no sweeter feeling than setting the curve :D

- sometimes i was hardcore and studied for days straight, and other times i was a slacker. like the one time, i went out to some dance party at the bars the night before a midterm or the day before a paper was due HAHA! or there was that one time when there was a hawaii club social, got home around 12:30am, got ready for another party and DJed for it and got home around 4 or so haha

- i may drink on a tuesday night, but i enjoy staying in on friday and saturday to study!

- and then there were a few radical yet classy, moments ::ahem:: save txc!

- ding dong ditch, drunk dialing, beer pong, frat row, frat parties...

- there's a first for everything! first concert ever (AFI at freeborn!), got my permit here, learned how to drive, got my license here, etc...

- eggs :D

- its all about balance :D


my only regret is not learning and absorbing enough.

this is such a random post, and it is by no means indicative of my WHOLE experience. just a few rando ones i wanted to shout out :D dont worry, there will be more! okay, must sleep now.


"the opportunity, if its meant to be, will present itself."

i got some new hurr.

i am not just being vain about my new 'do. lol there is much significance behind it!

first of all, i colored my hair like 2+ yrs ago, and i cut it uber short, so i finally finally finally grew it out! so its my natural color, naturally wavy, and very soft and fluffy.
&&& i thought twas AMAZING. lol i am very, very stubborn and do not like to let go. but in summation:

Me: I totes wasn't gonna get highlights,
but the hairstylist talked me into it lol
Change & letting go is good, right? I think?
Jas: Absolutely! I think its a great way to kinda
help let other crap go & start from a clean slate :)

im scared of this book.

and of what's about to come.

in one week, i will be performing in my last luau ever. and then i can breathe and have a life again and remember that SHIT, im graduating from college in three weeks! ahaha oh dear. and then i remember im not just graduating college, but it's something much more than that. im ending one phase of my life, and truly starting to enter: my twenties.

i had all these ideas about post-college life, but now im a little scared to read this book that my sister highly suggested i read and have all my bubbles popped ::sigh:: it shall happen one day. i mean, ill read the book one day. not the bubbles being popped part haha

stay tuned!

sac vs. la

it's a weird comparison, i know haha.

ive been thinking a lot about life after college [again]. kinda makes sense, cuz you know, i have only four weeks of my undergrad left haha.

im currently interning at this nonprofit in sac as an admin, and it's uberly connected to a lot of affluent people and companies in the area. as im starting to get to know these people, ive actually started to see myself working for them, or even staying in the area. and of course, there's surprisingly a lot of companies in this area (roseville, sacramento, etc) with job opportunities i'm interested in. to sum it up: i've been thinking a lot lately about what it would be like if i moved to sacramento. hmm, it'd be interesting to start my next phase of life right there. it'd be... different. i and kinda see myself there

but! then i kinda just wanna start all over again-ish and maybe definitely try to get into the apparel industry? um do you like my uncertainty there? "maybe definitely" and so the ideal place to go would be LA. and good thing my sister lives there...

hmm. the choices, the choices. oh well, i need to sit back and just think about it. still got school, hawaii club/luau, and txc isht going on. hmm.

Picnic Day!

Ahhh, Picnic Day.

A time-honored UC Davis tradition where all departments and organizations from all over campus showcase entertaining events for everyone who comes: families, alumni, and the Davis residents. The city prepares to host the numerous visitors that come for that one day. For students, it's the one day of the year where drinking at 8am is considered too late (wake your ass up and start drinking at 6am like everyone else!). Haha homemade drinks to go, of course. Need to avoid the po...


(If you're curious, you can read about the origination right hurr)

Of course I'll be busy like always with the hawaii club: fundraising, performing, then cheering on our kane & wahine at DDR! GOOOOO WIN THAT MONEY!!! ahaha

new york.new york

halal carts on every corner. loads and loads of jewish food. mucho giggling. coldness, rain, and wind. hello, sunshine. so many different companies. mills, manufacturers, and merchandising. apparel production. menswear. rando freebies. dow xla >>> spandex. loomstate uses ladybugs for pesticide control. txc162&163&164. cover ny. subway rides. mitzvah tank?! &&& so much more.
exactly what i needed. reminded me why i fell in love with this major and continue to pursue it

best vacay/spring break to date! i dont know how i functioned with so little sleep and my achy feet, but i did! so awesome just to leave everything and get out of the state for bit

"in new york, concrete jungle where dreams are made of/ there's nothing you can't do, now you're in New York/ these streets will make you feel brand new/big lights will inspire you, let's hear it for New York/New York, New York"

I'm embarking on a new journey!

In T-minus 2 days. [it's finally happening!!]

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hello? hi... remember me?

i <3 facebook. i heart keeping in touch with friends through facebook, because it just makes it way easier than calling and/or texting sometimes.

but we're not friends on facebook. lol. i'd like to change that one day... i'd like to get in contact with you again, but i'm afraid i'll get shot down. and i guess its okay, because if she truly feels that insecure, then i respect that, i think. and if you love her enough to let her dictate who can be and who can't be in your life, i'll try to respect that too (i think?)

but i miss being friends. i was so used to you being there in our group of friends, but I didn't think you'd actually say something during our last fatty hangout. (and im afraid that, what if im trying to reach out to you for the wrong reasons?)

i guess i'll just have to let fate/you make the first move, if it's in either of our destinies to cross paths as friends again...

YAY for...

friends;
new adventures everyday, every week;
catching up on the phone;
knowing people have your back wherever they may be;
new people, new opportunities, unexpected moments;

yay for all the good to take your mind off the bad;

yay for when "every minute of your life just gets better and better."

don't let this face fool you.

dear world,

yes, it's true. i don't really know what i'm going to do after graduation/college, and it's OKAY.

you know what? i love my major because the course load is so diverse and inter-disciplinary, that even if i don't enter the apparel industry, i am confident that my random bits of work experience and different courses will allow me to enter the field i choose. its not like im an engineer, or pre-med where its obvious that i must go into that field.

i don't like to put plans out there for everyone to know; what if they don't come true? i'll let you know what the plan is when i get there.

to be honest, i'm not worried about finding a job. did you hear that? let me repeat it for you again: I'm Not Worried About Finding A Job. even with the job market/the economy, i know i can find A job, but the question is if its a job that i will actually enjoy/like. let's face it, i will most likely be working for the rest of my life. i don't want to wake up late one day in the future thinking "shit, im late doing something i HATE doing" (- dane cook)

i may not know what "i want to do," but i have goals. don't let my giggly and seemingly aloof and/or carefree demeanor fool you - that's my poker face. before you know it, i will TRUMP your ass.

Oh, I sound arrogant? Well this wasn't written for you, but for me, to help me believe in myself that I WILL succeed when I am way too easily influenced by others that I will fail.

Or maybe this was written for you (whoever you may be? iunno lol). I WILL be successful beezy.

Good luck to the future of public education

From an forwarded email from a professor here at UC Davis...

"Tomorrow is the day scheduled for political action in defense of higher education, as spelled out in the attached letter. Yesterday my Department met with our Dean, who outlined for us the potentially catastrophic cuts that are coming. I am not at liberty to describe them in detail, but can say the intellectual vibrancy of this campus and the quality of the curriculum will be hit VERY hard.

Our most senior faculty (like me) are being urged to retire to save the system the cost of our salaries. At the same time there will be virtually no new hires, and no money for temporary lecturers--which means eveyone still here will be teaching all the time, research careers will be damaged or destroyed, and perhaps all the courses with enrollments under 50 (or higher) will be canceled.

You may be the LAST graduating class to experience UC as it has been.

The end of the quarter is fast approaching.
While I fully support the actions to be taken tomorrow (while remaining doubtful they can have any impact), my obligation as I see it is to do my job and I will show up for classes and I will lecture in XXX. Since I send out a pretty detailed lecture transcript, if you choose to participate in political action at the time of class I do not think you will be disadvantaged. But if you do NOT come to class, YOU ARE EXPECTED TO BE PARTICIPATING IN THESE ACTIONS, not doing something else like vegging out, studying for exams, or enjoying the foot of snow that will fall today at Donner Summit. Deal?

See you either tomorrow or Tuesday.

In solidarity, XXXX
"

---

A bit late, I apologize. This was sent on March 3rd in regards to the events statewide on March 4th.

Self-explanatory.

Much luck to all...

:D

what i've learned for now:

- sometimes, getting burned is necessary so you know to get away from the fire
- regardless of how old you may be, you never stop learning those life lessons
- amazing (to say the least) friends have your back no matter how NEAR or FAR they may be

and one rando one...

- i wish i had the courage to break up with my boyfriend from high school way before he broke up with me. i TOTALLY missed out on so many cute single boys!! (HEY if you really knew me, you'd be laughing with me. and if you think that was a horrible statement, go suck it! :D) and we all know what a downer it is when you meet someone cute and realize they have someone... lol

love,
kris

There's light peeking out through these clouds.

Things have been meh lately, to say the least. However, I am proud to show off my latest collaborative effort in an attempt to sustain the Division of Textiles & Clothing:

http://asucd.ucdavis.edu/government/gov-documents/2009-2010.html

We're #10! "Resolution opposing the proposed removal of the Davision of Textiles and Clothing"

Many, many thanks to Senator Trevor Taylor, Senator Shawdee Roufhaza, Ely Estoesta, Samantha Pinnock, the many encouraging senators who passed this resolution, and last but DEFINITELY not least, the wonderful TXC ladies who were there (in their stylish garb, of course!)

We're fighting an uphill battle, but we'll try anyway.
Food and clothing are basic necessities, and so is TXC <3

grateful, but i wish you could stay forever

[this will be a little blunt, esp because it will be released to the fb world but i dont care. i need to get it out]

so my dad's really sick right now in the hospital with pneumonia. pneumonia's pretty bad on its own, but it doesn't help that my dad has sleep apnea, diabetes, asthma, and on 10 different medications even though he's quite young (i wish i was making a joke, but i'm not.)

and even though we're all scared shitless, i'm hopeful that he'll get better. and most importantly, i'm grateful (to God, to fate, to how everything happens for a reason) for how everything has unfurled because honestly, it could be worse.

don't get me wrong - trying to hold up your dad (mind you, i am 5'1 and he is 5'11 and weighs so much more than me) then watch him go unconscious and try to lay him down on the floor without crushing either you or or mom as you try to call 911 is pretty fucking scary. but. it could be worse. im not saying it just to be optimistic, but i have some pretty bad memories of how my grandmas passed away. you know, sickness or some malady striking suddenly and you watch them wither away as the days, weeks, or even months go by. it's heart-wrenching, to say the least.

he'll get better, and everything will go back to normal.

but i know that that won't last forever, and of course, that breaks my heart. i love it when my sister and i come back to the bay, and when my family's together in the car, my dad's driving and my mom's in the passenger seat, and my sister and i are in the back just being goobers. i wish someone could take a snapshot of that and keep it for me forever. it's like we're back in the 90s, and im still 7 and my sister's 17. i cherish those moments SO much because it's the one thing i will never get back; i understand that those seconds and minutes are slipping through our fingers as we speak...

so i realize we're not a kid and a teenager, respectively, but 21 and 31. and my parents won't live forever. and no matter how independent and on-our-own we may be, they won't be there to protect us forever. they won't be our back-up plan for when things go really shitty (wow im making growing up sound sooo fun right now lol). i wish..

my dad's slowly getting better [emphasis on slowly] but i have a feeling that this is something that we will look back on in the future. i mean that in a good way, like, "yes that was a bump in the road but now everything's smooth."

the clock is ticking. i guess that's what they mean by "live like there's no tmrw" ? whateves, im not changing any of that lol. still will be hopeful, optimistic, hard-working and living life as i have been. never say never, even if it is bad (and i still stick by that decision and what ive learned from it)

on a funnier note: my family has to put on masks every time we enter my dad's hospital room (dude regardless, my sister and i just got over our respective sicknesses so there is no effin way we're getting sick again). my sister and i keep joking around "lets take a picture [of us] and put it on facebook!!" and my dad says through his oxygen mask: "NO you are not putting this on facebook!" ahahahhaa

are100b & ALF (+ hello new year!)

z0mg its 2010! haha everytime i see "2008" i still think "oh that was just last year..."

hello blog! long time no talk. well well, i must say the new years has been quite interesting, exciting, eventful, aka everything i hoped 2010 to be :)

id like to focus on two dealios: my ARE100B class and ALF

so... are100b. or at least the are100 series. we meet again. although i am not in love with intermediate microeconomics (the ochem of econ, according to calvin newguyen), i shall deal. especially since its required lol. i am struggling, but slowly trying to love and appreciate it (like some strong wine lol).

and ALF! im interning there, and i must say, it is quite awesome :) it has me seriously considering working in a non-profit after college.

that is all for now :D