It's been a while

I feel like I need to cue that Nickelback song

It’s clearly been a long time since I wrote in this thing… A year and a half to be exact.

So what’s up with me?

I’ve been experiencing this thing called my twenties. Or post grad life. But it feels like its been forever since post grad, so we’ll just refer to it as my twenties.

And as of the past seven months of my life… it’s been amazing.

Work has been great for now – fulfilling many needs in my life (financially, emotionally, etc) and I’m content, which surprisingly says a lot because work can take up so much of your time/day/week/life.

Social life – great, and content.

Dating life – amazing, but we’ll see how it goes

Extra curricular/dance – amazing as well. Minus my body breaking haha.

What are the symptoms of the latter half of your twenties?

Utter contentment, desensitization of setbacks, and #firstworldproblems.

On a side note, when I look back at this and that from my past, I am amazed at the first that I was and I’m not sure if she is the same person.

Is this what regret feels like?

I am so looking forward to the second half of my twenties, and beyond.

And I need to work on diminishing the regret factor.

It's crazy how...

fast time flies.

So cliche, but so true. It's the first day of a new job, then it's the first month, and it's the first 6 months, and even though it only feels like four have passed by, it's actually been (almost) a year.

It's crazy how it all goes by you, so. freakin. fast. Time is flying, the months are going by and before you know it, it's a new year, but what about yourself? With everything going at the speed of life and getting so consumed by work and what not, what about personal development? Where is the time for that?

Because before you know it, it's suddenly a new year, and your outlook on life, your beliefs, and the people you choose to surround yourself with have drastically changed.

What I learned from a stranger the other night - it's good to be continually in a state of uncertainty, if only for a certain period of time

Promise to self

Dear self,

Let's just be clear that the following are non-negotiables:

Maintain work-life balance.

Sister said it best: even when you're not at work or at the office, you are either think of or preparing for work. That means a lot of your life revolves at work. Therefore, there is nothing wrong with picking up something on the side to help get it off your mind for a little.

You do not own any assets or are responsible for anyone else but yourself (maybe your parents).

Take this opportunity now to explore your career as much as you can.

You can't please everybody.

Suck it up, you just can't. And this applies to work and the love life. Share or keep it to yourself and fuck them all.

This is not an exhaustive list of needs, and will be up expanded upon in the future.

Oh, HIII 2012.

So, a little more than a month since my last post and I've realized that one: time has flown and holy shit, it's already 2012, and two: totally did not live up to my work out resolution made mid-November. The reasons still exist, but my lazy bum did not do it. Oh wells :[

Anyhoo, here are my resolutions for the upcoming year. I know, why use January as an excuse to make resolutions? Well, for the first time ever, I'm seeing this month as truly the beginning of the year. I'm not a student anymore, so my year isn't September - June anymore, but truly Jan - December. I'm weird, I know.

Anyhoo! Here's what my 2012 entails:

- Be more financially responsible

- Learn Tagalog

- Open up a ROTH IRA by my 24th birthday

- Be more resolute in what I say

- Be less selfish

- Appreciate family more

(and made as of this morning...)

- Date more.

These have been well thought out. So thought out, that I actually wrote them down haha and I have very good reason for it. However, I don't have the heart to write down my reasons.

2011, you have been an interesting year to say the least. It hasn't been always pretty, and I've learned some things about myself. But, if I was able to withstand the happenings of 2011, this should show that I can withstand a little more than I originally thought, yes?

Resolutions, now and later

Oh hiiiii, neglected blog :)

It's not that I don't love you, and it's not [necessarily] that I'm too busy/unwilling to sit down after work and write out my thoughts, but the emotional roller coaster from my college years has slowed down (only a little bit) and I am a little less willing to document every. single. thing. Especially online. lol but here are some online-worthy thoughts:

I am going to strive to make a resolution as of right now (Saturday, November 26th) to be healthy. For the past few months I've been relying on "doing that extra mile" or "my fast metabolism," but that shit has to stop now. Why now, as oppose to waiting until the new year and joining the masses of people who say the same thing and act like a protester and occupy the gym for about 3 weeks?

Because of my dad. To the say least, he's been sick, and as I've been by his side trying to listen and understand everything the doctor says, it ultimately boils down how he took care of himself, or more so lack thereof. What resonates even more so within me is that my body tends to resemble his side of the family, so whatever is happening to him, I have a great chance of happening to me.

My aunt (my dad's sister) is doing everything she can to avoid health problems, and she's been doing an amazing job. She regularly works out and watches what she eats, but it's definitely not easy. And my parents are also helping me out too. My dad needs a kidney, and it just so happens that I am healthy person (healthy as in no diabetes) who is the exact blood type. Exact. However, with my family history, with only one kidney, my chances of getting diabetes goes up very high. Although I would like my dad to have the kidney, my parents have made the executive decision for me not to, so I can enjoy the quality of my life while I'm still young.

Time to get on my healthy hype, no?

As for resolutions for later, I need to be more financially responsible, learn Tagalog and run a race. But that's for discussion for later :D

Speaking of my awkward protester reference, not cool UC Davis police. So much love goes out to my alma mater right now. Stay strong, and keep on doing what you do for the future of public education.

22. Bachelors. Corporate. City

There's been a lot of change going on lately. New job, new city, new living situation. It's been a lot of new, and I'll admit that I'm just starting to appreciate the beauty of it.

For the past three weeks I've been so pessimistic and I bitch about everything little thing, but hear me out: it's different, can be scary, and not what I'm used to, so let me have my tantrum. I'm trying my hardest to be open-minded, appreciate the new environment and see the differences as a good thing, not a bad thing.

So if you're hating it so much Kris, why the eff did you move out? Good question. lol

I love love love my little college town, and it will forever have a special place in my heart. But the one thing I had to learn the hard way is that it's so different living in a college town when you're not a college student yourself anymore. I miss the quaint little town, I miss the people I lived with, I miss my friends who were 5 mins away or less (hell, it was like I spent a 5th year of college there!), but it was time to grow up. Time to meet other young working adults and experience the grown up life. Plus, the unhappiness/uneasiness of it all was starting to get to me. I wanted a new job, I needed a new social circle/environment and simply had to leave behind all the bullshit that built up (Guess it was good it happened then, because it was part of the catalyst for change...)

The first week wasn't easy. Couldn't emphasize it enough - new job, new city, new living situation. And commuting. Oy, so difficult. And then some stuff happened lol and I realized that although I wanted to go back for graduation, I had to prioritize things and focus on moving here.

So my fourth week at work is about to start tomorrow, and I've decided that I really need to stop bitching. It's funny, it seems like (mostly) everyone else is excited for all that's going on in my life (specifically the move) but me. lol yeah, there's definitely something wrong with that picture...

So here's my new mantra: 22. Bachelors. Corporate. City.

What does it all mean? It's a reminder that I am young, successful, and smart. I am a 22-year-old with a Bachelor's degree, who works for Corporate, and lives in the City. And for that, I should be extremely happy, proud, and blessed.

(I know, I'm hella boasting on myself but whatever. I mean, before anyone else believes in you, you gotta believe in yourself, right? And if you can't take it, suck my nuts. ahaha)

22. Bachelors. Corporate. City. Yee!

"Make bridges, not gaps"

Someone recently told me that you should "make bridges, not gaps," and while it does seem true, I think that sometimes you need to let go of people/things in order to move on. The good, the bad, the bullshit... it all just needs to get out of your life and if it's meant to be, it'll get back in.

That whole "forget all that brought you down... nothing will hold me down, not even you." & everything else with it. Right back at you.But more so, it's incredible you care so much about what others think. And I guess I should be flattered that you're so bothered by me that you have to make shoutouts? hahaha. la la la la. llama.

On a different note, I'm proud of myself and an attempt to mature. I'm stubborn, hasty, and quick to my temper & mean with my words. But somehow I kept it in. And although my quietness seemed to be like a submissive vulnerability, it has now proven itself to be the best form of nonchalance. I hella get brownie points. Even my roomies say so :)

Oh, and the one thing I've learned is I never, ever want a boy who can muster as much drama or more than I ever can. Oh goodness gracious. Never again.