Resolutions, now and later

Oh hiiiii, neglected blog :)

It's not that I don't love you, and it's not [necessarily] that I'm too busy/unwilling to sit down after work and write out my thoughts, but the emotional roller coaster from my college years has slowed down (only a little bit) and I am a little less willing to document every. single. thing. Especially online. lol but here are some online-worthy thoughts:

I am going to strive to make a resolution as of right now (Saturday, November 26th) to be healthy. For the past few months I've been relying on "doing that extra mile" or "my fast metabolism," but that shit has to stop now. Why now, as oppose to waiting until the new year and joining the masses of people who say the same thing and act like a protester and occupy the gym for about 3 weeks?

Because of my dad. To the say least, he's been sick, and as I've been by his side trying to listen and understand everything the doctor says, it ultimately boils down how he took care of himself, or more so lack thereof. What resonates even more so within me is that my body tends to resemble his side of the family, so whatever is happening to him, I have a great chance of happening to me.

My aunt (my dad's sister) is doing everything she can to avoid health problems, and she's been doing an amazing job. She regularly works out and watches what she eats, but it's definitely not easy. And my parents are also helping me out too. My dad needs a kidney, and it just so happens that I am healthy person (healthy as in no diabetes) who is the exact blood type. Exact. However, with my family history, with only one kidney, my chances of getting diabetes goes up very high. Although I would like my dad to have the kidney, my parents have made the executive decision for me not to, so I can enjoy the quality of my life while I'm still young.

Time to get on my healthy hype, no?

As for resolutions for later, I need to be more financially responsible, learn Tagalog and run a race. But that's for discussion for later :D

Speaking of my awkward protester reference, not cool UC Davis police. So much love goes out to my alma mater right now. Stay strong, and keep on doing what you do for the future of public education.

22. Bachelors. Corporate. City

There's been a lot of change going on lately. New job, new city, new living situation. It's been a lot of new, and I'll admit that I'm just starting to appreciate the beauty of it.

For the past three weeks I've been so pessimistic and I bitch about everything little thing, but hear me out: it's different, can be scary, and not what I'm used to, so let me have my tantrum. I'm trying my hardest to be open-minded, appreciate the new environment and see the differences as a good thing, not a bad thing.

So if you're hating it so much Kris, why the eff did you move out? Good question. lol

I love love love my little college town, and it will forever have a special place in my heart. But the one thing I had to learn the hard way is that it's so different living in a college town when you're not a college student yourself anymore. I miss the quaint little town, I miss the people I lived with, I miss my friends who were 5 mins away or less (hell, it was like I spent a 5th year of college there!), but it was time to grow up. Time to meet other young working adults and experience the grown up life. Plus, the unhappiness/uneasiness of it all was starting to get to me. I wanted a new job, I needed a new social circle/environment and simply had to leave behind all the bullshit that built up (Guess it was good it happened then, because it was part of the catalyst for change...)

The first week wasn't easy. Couldn't emphasize it enough - new job, new city, new living situation. And commuting. Oy, so difficult. And then some stuff happened lol and I realized that although I wanted to go back for graduation, I had to prioritize things and focus on moving here.

So my fourth week at work is about to start tomorrow, and I've decided that I really need to stop bitching. It's funny, it seems like (mostly) everyone else is excited for all that's going on in my life (specifically the move) but me. lol yeah, there's definitely something wrong with that picture...

So here's my new mantra: 22. Bachelors. Corporate. City.

What does it all mean? It's a reminder that I am young, successful, and smart. I am a 22-year-old with a Bachelor's degree, who works for Corporate, and lives in the City. And for that, I should be extremely happy, proud, and blessed.

(I know, I'm hella boasting on myself but whatever. I mean, before anyone else believes in you, you gotta believe in yourself, right? And if you can't take it, suck my nuts. ahaha)

22. Bachelors. Corporate. City. Yee!

"Make bridges, not gaps"

Someone recently told me that you should "make bridges, not gaps," and while it does seem true, I think that sometimes you need to let go of people/things in order to move on. The good, the bad, the bullshit... it all just needs to get out of your life and if it's meant to be, it'll get back in.

That whole "forget all that brought you down... nothing will hold me down, not even you." & everything else with it. Right back at you.But more so, it's incredible you care so much about what others think. And I guess I should be flattered that you're so bothered by me that you have to make shoutouts? hahaha. la la la la. llama.

On a different note, I'm proud of myself and an attempt to mature. I'm stubborn, hasty, and quick to my temper & mean with my words. But somehow I kept it in. And although my quietness seemed to be like a submissive vulnerability, it has now proven itself to be the best form of nonchalance. I hella get brownie points. Even my roomies say so :)

Oh, and the one thing I've learned is I never, ever want a boy who can muster as much drama or more than I ever can. Oh goodness gracious. Never again.

Hurrr.

B: Should you really be changing your hair?
Isn't it kinda early?

Me: I need some change in my life
so at least have me control over
this one aspect of it please

A few days ago for Cinco de Mayo...

Dark brown..

A Year Ago...

I love comparing my life back then and now. It's not like things are totally different, but it's interesting what was going on in my life as well as thoughts and feelings a year ago, and how things are now. When I was still writing for UCD Textstyles, I sounded so optimistic and deer-eyed in my bio. lol not like that's a bad thing, but it's just interesting:

"I deeply believe that everything happens for a reason. For example, if I didn't fail my MAT16B class, I would have never taken TXC6 to replace it and discovered this major (haha)!"

- WOW kris, wow. hahaha then again, I wouldn't put it past me to be so open that "my failure was a catalyst to this decision." lol

"...I love the program because it is so diverse and inter-disciplinary. I fell in love while exploring the science aspect of clothing, and each lecture, class project, or career seminar has kept me content with my decision. I never would've thought I'd have so many options or receive so much encouragement and preparation to do whatever I wanted. I recently went to New York with 19 other TXC ladies and got an amazing first-hand look at the different parts of apparel production; I always thought I'd be a California girl forever, but now I'm contemplating to move to NYC. I'd secretly like to go into menswear just so I can say I know how to dress a man ;) haha! Oh yeah, SAVE TXC<3"


And one of my biggest wishes for myself is that no matter how old I get, that I stay optimistic, take risks, and have the balls to do what makes me HAPPY. Never fucking SETTLE.

good friends make you cry. lawls

You're thinking, "wtf?" but yes, it's true. Good friends are hard to find, and worth your tears. Especially those that you haven't seen or talked to or interacted with for a while, yet they know you as if they saw you yesterday. real & legit <3

"Quarter-Life Crisis" - taken from kathy hsu

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure
and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.


You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones. What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. You miss the comforts of college, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.

You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.

You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better. You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap and getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic. You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender! What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.

People always remember...

"People may not remember exactly what you did, or what you said,

...but they will always remember how you made them feel."


[& that sums it up perfectly.]

Styling Silent Auction Tables 101

On a happier note, the following are from our silent auction. I was responsible for most auction stuff this year, including setting it up. w00t for it turning out nicely!

Given: five tables inside the ballroom for most of the silent auction

Learn to be resourceful! Definitely didn't have enough risers,
and when I saw the staff pull these out, I immediately asked to borrow these

Variety in height is always good, too



I know, this side view doesn't look so great...

By using steps to add height and using extra table clothes
to cover them & drape, you have this! Voila!

The finished product



The foyer outside the ballroom for the art

What it looked like from afar

Whaddup, 2011?

Nothing too poignant happening in my life, but I just realized that the first month of the year is almost over and I haven't been giving my blog some love! Well hello there ::cuddles::

So back in August of 2010, I said I'd give myself 6 months to find a new job and move out of this area. Well, that 6 month deadline will be over in a few days, and guess what? No job, no prospect of moving, nothing new. Haha oh well! It;s funny, I've surprisingly been doing a lot of partying lately... Odd to say, but I'm finally enjoying the post-grad life. I actually have time to do what I want and... it's nice. I'm not busy with 123u31387 different things (although I kinda miss it).

And although I don't have a new job yet (even though I have a few rejections :D haha), I'll mope about it for like 30 minutes or so and move on. I'm growing and learning more about how to really market myself in the "real world" so I'm good. Just taking things with a grain of salt and yeah... Here's to 2011 :D


Song of the moment: "No Hands" - Waka Flocka Flame