For those who have been there, the term "college relationships" recall feelings of frustration, sadness, pain, guilt, exasperation, or whatever the hell you want to call it. I'm still a newbie at experiencing as well as observing others, but you can't deny you feel one or more of the following things:
*You want to break up because you're in college, aka the best four years of your life. time to experiment and not tie yourself down!
*You're dating an amazing person, but she's the marrying type. what about that experimentation!?
*I can't deal with the distance, I want them here.
*I can't deal with school AND a relationship
*Even if school and distance are not an issue, I don't want to try anymore. Let's move on. It's over.
*There has to be someone else out there for me
aaand last but not least:
*I still want to be with you.
Myself, personally? I've felt every single one of those, and I've been chilling with the last one for almost 2 and 1/2 years. Yes, I am one of those seemingly crazy people who has been in a relationship that has gone on forever (while in college). I am also one of those annoying ppl in school who will poke and prod you and ask what your answers are and how you deducted those answers, just to make sure we're on the same page. And that's why I'm writing this--because there are times i DON'T feel like I'm on the same page with everyone else, because I know there are other couples. Half of them can do this, and half of them can't, and it just brings me down because I hear too many cases of the half that CAN'T, which just increases statistics.
POO!
Monday, November 12, 2007
a preview to my fall quarter
Dammit, if only I blogged more I would have short & more interesting blogs; thus, interesting titles! Oh well, here goes the highlights of the quarter thus far...
On my first day of school, while waiting for the bus, I encountered a Jehovah's witness, and I was bitching her out in my mind.
Later that week, while watching TV with mel, I analyzed the components of frats and gangs...
Throughout the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, etc week, I am on a roller coaster of emotions (and it's not just Aunt Flo...)--I can see why "growing up," being on your own, or just being an adult can be so frustrating. I know this sounds stupid, but it's such a pain in the ass to think "wtf am i going to make for dinner?" Also, i know i feel like i've longed for the moment to free from my "the reign of parents," but at the same time, i've only lived with them, and it feels so weird to not be sitting down to eat dinner with them, or hear about their day, or hear them snoring in the living room haha. Call me a homesick sap, but I'm just appreciating them I guess... On top of that, school is incredibly frustrating.
Oh yeah, this blog is a temporary home to the HC!
Sorry to say, but mel and I are pathetically car-less, and I call village cab way too much. On this one occassion, I called Village Cab to find out that they were running late, and I was suggested to call Friendly Cab. The latter is notoriously ghetto, but nonetheless I called; however, they did not perform up to par as my previous trips with Village. So, I call Village back up and Village barely beats Friendly. Friendly is PISSED, and minutes later I feel the car/driver is stalking us. Guess what? The driver for Friendly is an ex-convict!
...iiii know :\
So you're pretty much updated on my life for now. Until later...
On my first day of school, while waiting for the bus, I encountered a Jehovah's witness, and I was bitching her out in my mind.
Later that week, while watching TV with mel, I analyzed the components of frats and gangs...
Throughout the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, etc week, I am on a roller coaster of emotions (and it's not just Aunt Flo...)--I can see why "growing up," being on your own, or just being an adult can be so frustrating. I know this sounds stupid, but it's such a pain in the ass to think "wtf am i going to make for dinner?" Also, i know i feel like i've longed for the moment to free from my "the reign of parents," but at the same time, i've only lived with them, and it feels so weird to not be sitting down to eat dinner with them, or hear about their day, or hear them snoring in the living room haha. Call me a homesick sap, but I'm just appreciating them I guess... On top of that, school is incredibly frustrating.
Oh yeah, this blog is a temporary home to the HC!
Sorry to say, but mel and I are pathetically car-less, and I call village cab way too much. On this one occassion, I called Village Cab to find out that they were running late, and I was suggested to call Friendly Cab. The latter is notoriously ghetto, but nonetheless I called; however, they did not perform up to par as my previous trips with Village. So, I call Village back up and Village barely beats Friendly. Friendly is PISSED, and minutes later I feel the car/driver is stalking us. Guess what? The driver for Friendly is an ex-convict!
...iiii know :\
So you're pretty much updated on my life for now. Until later...
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