sometimes i wish...

Oh noes, is this the point of your life where you start regretting things?

I honestly believe that "everything happens for a reason" and that's usually what I tell myself when I start regretting things, but lately I've been feeling more... guilty? for things I haven't done and it makes me wonder how things would've turned out..,

I lived it up as muuuuch as I could when I was in college, and I did as much as I could in order to be successful (or where I am now) but sometimes I wonder how things would've turned out if I didn't do so much. I'm not necessarily saying "stopping to smell the roses" but just done more fun shit instead of working myself all the time. Like hanging out with people more. Or chilling with friends more (I swear, they're different in my head lol). Or going abroad...

Eh, that's a trade-off for all that. The opportunity cost -- (hahaha YESSS ECONOMICS! i find it amusing when i can sneak in bits of economics into rando life topics) -- for all that fun was the experience and moolah I was gaining. Hrmm.

[and I think one of the most frustrating things right now is my social life. Not only is it weird being in a college town still when you're not a fucking student, but all your friends gone for the most part. And those who you do hang out with... well those people will be gone soon too. And I may have the time to hit the bars more and hang out with friends and go out and shit but damn well don't have the moolah. I have to be responsible and pay my rent. And where are all the guys huh... Always bitching that I don't have time for them, well here I am and with time on my hands...]

Maybe I just don't know how to reach out to people...